Thursday, November 25, 2010

Thanks For...



Today's Thanks giving , this day really holds no meaning for me personally. I find it sad that people need a holiday to get together and be loving and thankful for things and each other. 

Theirs many things I am thankful for.
Im probably most thankful for all the beautiful people in my life.
Individually I have amazing relationships with all of my friends. 
Everyone in my family is unique and overs me something different.

I've learned and absorbed so much this year from all the people in and around my life.
Wether its the stranger I encountered a few month ago that made me cry just by looking me in the face and saying thank you. Or a new friend I've come to love and really appreciate, everyone has had huge impact. 
now Im  gonna ramble ...

A lot with my family has changed these last couple of years. 

My great grandmother Maria passed away around this time almost 2 years ago. I wasn't the closest to her being her only great granddaughter I found it hard to connect to her being the youngest, but I never questioned the love she shared for me and everyone in my family. She loved every single person in a different way, and shared different relationships with everyone. Anyway holidays always make me think about my grandma. She always held everything together no matter what.

People in my family have always had there problems but grandma always made the holidays pleasant. She used to tell me how she would make one tea bag last for 7 cups of tea so every one got a cup during the depression. 
She would start cooking for xmas and thanksgiving 2-3 days before, when I was a kid. She put her blood sweat and tears into our family meals and everything was always perfect.

No matter what every year we were always together cause of grandma. And I value that so much, but I dont think you need a Holiday to bring that kind of love out of people. 

My grandma also used to mail me a card every year for EVERY holiday they always had cute cheesy saying in them and a 5$ Bill , honestly I miss the cheesy things and the holiday sweaters I hated as a kid. Now I know why she did it, and I miss it oh soooo much. 

This thanksgiving I will spend it with just me and my mom due to family living in other states and some family just simply drifted.

The moral of this post... Is you dont need a "holiday" to be around and show thanks to the people you love wether its family or friends its okay to Love them everyday.

Plan sit down dinners just for the hell of it.
Get to know the people in your life.

My grandma Joey used to have mandatory dinner several times a week and if you weren't at the table by 6 you didn't eat. I HATED her for this as a teenager and just wanted to be out with my friends, but now I appreciate those dinners so much I got to know my family and value the meaning of family so much more cause of those dreadful dinners. 


Now have fun stuffing your faces.


This is cheesy but my grandma loved her.











Happy Thanksgiving

Publish Post

Buffy Sainte-Marie & Pete Seeger - Cindy


Someone I hold a lot of respect for.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

"Vixen" Movie Trailer (1968)

The Mutations 1974

Cannibal Girls 1973

Dantes Inferno



Good Travels


A Door on Haight st , San Fransico CA


Wall of of Market st San Fransico, CA
 
Wall Mission st San Fransico, CA


Haight st San Fransico, CA


Wall Haight st San Fransico, CA


Pike St Seattle, WA



                                                              Post Alley Seattle, WA


                                                        Shipwreck    Venice Beach, CA


-All photos taken by me.

Friday, November 19, 2010

Saturday, November 6, 2010

-Ansel Adams

Open Roads

Sometimes you meet someone at the wrong time in life.  I've recently been really dependent on certain people in my life and I am now coming to realize that I dont need those kind of relationships. Its really important to be somewhat selfish sometimes and thats hard to understand when your on the outside. I always try to take something positive from every person I encounter.

And recently I've learned a whole lot from one person and I kind of feel like Im loosing that person now. For a period this was really upsetting to me I didn't understand it. But now that I've really thought about things tho this might not have been the way I wanted things to go it might be the way you need it to go.

I've always had issues with letting people into my life. I tend to be very outgoing and social but their are few people I consider to be real friends or people that I would make an effort to keep in my life.

So its really hard when I've met someone like that and I dont feel they think Im worth making the effort to keep around , and that's when I tell myself this was just bad timing I guess.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Gotta Start Somewhere.

Starting a blog due to having a lot on my mind at the moment.
Some things you may like to know before bothering to read my blog, I am very opinionated, I have terrible grammar which you may have already noticed :) I question many things, and I ramble.